yes blog life is nuts right now.
yes blog i am in the midst of
mid-years HELL-
and yes blog
the voices i am hearing in my
head right now are most definitely not from
you nor those of heavenly saints and angels
directing me on the narrow path
of God's will- one that would
ultimately lead to our great
LORD AND SAVIOUR.

=insert mad laughter=

hahahahahas ^^
aqueous and vitreous humour
keeps your eyeball firm and refract light
but the subjective humour i feel now
does not.
and thats bio for you my friends =)

i just realised i could sound like
a totally different person on the
Internet if i desired to.

the greatArchimedes once proposed on
a phenomenal law of psychics,
arguing that the resistance of a
supposedly existent point eventually...

get out of my life.
every shred of respect i once had for you
what i thought you actually would be-
just
GET LOST.

went - with - today!
had so much fun! and - was SO funny!
laffed like siao! hahas

laoo gonng i miiss eeuu!
went to bugis today with my laogongg
and we look so cool in the neoprints
-FLASHS neoprint pictures-

oooh i d better stop now.
its so fake i think i m getting goose bumps.
worse-
its so LAME! =P
ahh wells
im entitled to a slice of insanity once in a while.
it does not taste like apple pie. =)

her fingertips brushed
the smooth plastic notes of the piano
caressing each individual
black and white
yet not summoning strength
nor courage to press a single note
of the silent work of art before her.
for is music not art for the ears-
just as art is music to the eyes?

instead, she wilfully stroked each note-
till she stopped.

at Bflat.

life is like me. ^^

my whole life flashed before
my eyes yesterday.
during MeettheParents session
and-
'we are not amused' [quotesQueenVictoria]

yes, well-
apparently i was to opt for a
1. suitable jc/poly to study to
2. struggle in a local university
3. get a good course and arm myself
with the basic grenades and ammunition
4. burst into the work scene where the
5. company will exploit me until im old and gray
6. then i will end up as an unknown spinster with
her seventeen cats and a great liking for tea.

ughhhhhhs nonono-
i want to impact the world with my Nobels-
to collaborate with the leaders of the modern
world and strive for greater peace!
to spread the word of Christ to all
corners of this Earth-
to save millions of species from the brink of
extinction!
and how else will i find the antidotes
to the other 23 variations of smallpox in the world?

oh, to carry out God's plan-
as he has so charted out my life and its destinies
aeons long before my birth.

hadsuchastrangedreamlastnight.

i dreamt-
that there was in this quaint european village
where people lived in houses made of
stained glass windows-of soft brown and
orange undertones.

i remember seeing a bakery-such a grand one-
with clouds of white fresh clouds billowing from
its chimney-scented with the buttery smells of
freshly baked rolls and assorted cakes.

the view of the sunset could be seen
from the breath-takingly decorated ballroom
an eternal beauty of the significance
of the end of day-
and the start of the night.
two interchanging but never
intertwining elements-
and-

as if to prove my importance and purpose
in my dream-
i was ballroom dancing.
twirling-sashaying-with
one in a flawless white carvet
matched perfectly with a hint of
ceremonious orange and gold-
the theme of the day.

i wondered-

is there really such evil in the world-
now and even in the past?
we consider ourselves by a word-
civilized.
cultivated in mind and in knowledge, yes.
but in the
heart and soul?
and is that not what is more important by far of the two?
we declare ourselves faithful to God-
through all forms or torment and hardship,
consider it a privilege and honour to be God's
people, to be a full-fledged Christian.

are we doing God proud?
to fulfil our carnal desires through
thoughts and actions considered unholy?
Society considers it the norm, but must we
be slaves- chained by what it expects of us?

Jesus has died for the World's sins.
but the sins of the World will not cease
for Jesus.

what i had been constantly searching for-

was in front of me the whole time.

shiomio kurukuru amaste viokioo-

i now only have the most profound sympathies,
heartfelt pain, and admiration and respect for those
who have endured beyond the limits of humane limits
of imagination and understanding
of dwelling not in ones depression as the pool of stagnant waters
but flow and overwhelm expressively
not in words
not in sound
not even in gestures or the slightest motion
but silently
violent waves and tidal plumes of
endurance, strength, that glint
of brutality and coldness sharpened unknowingly
from the brunt of having to survive wihtout
perspection, perspective and undoubtly with
the excess of frustration and pure white-hot
unbridled catalytic explosions of anger
of having to survive through all elements-
with one good eye.

its no joke i tell you =P